I have gathered you all here today to inform you that you are witness to a miracle.
I made a hotel reservation. By myself.
I picked the hotel based on Yelp and Google reviews. By myself.
And I checked in. By myself.
Okay so this probably doesn’t sound like a big deal to you. But trust me, it’s huge. I’m a generally anxious person, and I pretty much get even more anxious whenever I even have to think about making important decisions alone. And a hotel doesn’t seem like that important of a decision.
But it is. It’s almost as if I’m proving to myself, Hey. Life is totally scary, and it’s not going to stop being scary, but you are going to be okay. I didn’t even know I knew to look for others’ reviews when selecting a hotel destination. I didn’t know that I knew to look up the distance the place is from everything I’m doing this weekend. But I did, and I figured it out. What’s that, you ask? WHY is this important?
What about future appointments? Dentist? Doctor? Calling to get things fixed on my car or house. Doing taxes. Making work decisions. These are within the same vein. Definitely different, but my point is, I’m going to get there. As far as I’m concerned, this is one small step for Stephanie, but eventually one huge step towards adulthood.
Next stop: budgeting?? Maybe?? *shudders*Maybe not. Baby steps.